8/29/09

so i did do the whole idea of writing down my thoughts that i should blog about, but that's at my house and i am currently not there. so I am going to go off of the lessons that I have learned recently. So if you don't know me well people always tell me that i am an easy person to talk to and they come to me for advice, but i have learned that I am very bad at doing the opposite, talking about me and things that i need advice on or problems that I have. well sometimes it can be nice to change and open up people can be there for you and help you out a lot! that's why I love my friends so dearly. i just only wish that I was a strongest person to open up and tell so many more people, but that is just not me, but it could help me. i could work on being a better me, something that I want to do. i think that i could be such a better version of myself while I am still myself. well, off to a new subject now... why do I have to talk oh so much my mouth is always moving, and some very weird things can come out that should maybe just be kept to me. now I am confused I started off with the whole open up more and went on to the whole less talking thing, but what I need to do is talk more about serious stuff and less about lame stuff while still being myself. this may be a challenge, but I think I can manage. just in case you were wondering I am cold. another lesson that I have learned is to forgive and forget, well I didn't actually learn that I just know that I really need to do that, but do not know how. the thing is i cover up the feeling of hate and pretend that nothing is wrong when deep down something may hurt me, but i did also do this today over a really really small problem, but you always have to start small and work your way to bigger projects. SLEEP get it sleeping is oh so important and I need more!! I'm so tired. blah i am such a pansy :) lol. So i am going to continue to learn life lessons and improving myself. I will keep in touch.

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8/25/09

How come whenever someone close to you goes somewhere for even the shortest period of time you miss them so much sometimes even before they leave. I could have gone, by that would have ruined their chance to have their freedom and make sure he is truly sure about this! blah! so now driving, why do you actually have to think, but you cant think to much. It is so hard to manage the in between. Now I'm actually not that bad of a driver I just cant park if my life depended on it! So the life lesson that I have learned always be yourself. No matter what you need to be you, most of the time I am great at being myself, but at times its hard, I never change for other people I change for myself. Changing for yourself still may not be the best that you can do then you have to change yourself back to being yourself. I love when exciting events are coming to a near. My exciting event is the MN state fair its this weekend! PARTY! lol! the feeling that you get can make your week great! So this may be really random, but I'm not blonde there is no blonde about me, and there is nothing wrong with being blonde. the color of your hair does not determine your intelligence, and If I were a blonde it would disappoint me that I would get judged just upon the color of my hair. I don't understand why someone could create a comparison between hair color and intelligence, there is nothing in common there and even if I'm not a blonde it annoys me that people have these ideas. Give a person a chance and actually meet them and get to know them before you judge them. well my mind is drained and I am out of things to write about, I think that I will start to write down my ideas when they come to me so I don't forget them again! :)

8/22/09

So right now I'm actually really frustrated, but most may ask why are you caring, but to me its important. So please take the time to read this and give me any feedback that you can. There once was a teenager (who's name will not be mentioned) who was my best friend for 12 years, she was very smart and was going to go very very far in the world. She had the motivation and the skills, but then she started hanging out with the wrong group of friends. me being the smarter one told her that I felt that we should go our own paths even tho it hurt telling her this i knew it was the right way to go. We had lost contact until about a whole year after splitting paths (this was today) and we started talking. I found out that this smart motivated girl had changed and she wants to throw away her life and drop out of high school when she has so much to offer! Now sure we are no longer friends but I still care enough where this hurts me and I don't wanna see this happen, so I tried talking to her, but there is nothing that I can do, she thinks she will be happy living in a trailer park (yea she really did say trailer park) But I think she is going to regret it. Do any of you have any ideas on how I could help? So now that I have got everything out of me about her dropping out lets blog! I have not learned any great life lessons recently, its pretty sad I love life lessons. The school year is coming up and its making me think what do i want to do before summer is over...the first thing coming to mind is shopping, but I want to do something better then that this is my last "free" summer where I don't have to worry about going off to college which I'm excited for, but yet its scary. Years past the big bang of summer has been a party, I'm sure I will go to them this year, but it wont be the big bang. I feel like I should go bungee jumping, hum maybe that will be it! bungee jumping seems like it would prepare my for the wonderful adventures of senior year! Now on the topic of school remembering back to my childhood days you go school shopping with the whole family and buy everything way before school would start. as the years go on it gets closer to the start of school and you buy less school supplies (because they are boring, and you always had to much anyways) and you buy so many more clothes, because they are important. Come to think of it I have yet to buy any school supplies (my mom got a bag of stuff without me and I have not even looked at it yet), but I have already got new school clothes. I like how the pattern changes I would so rather have a shirt over a notebook! I wonder if this pattern is the same for a lot of people or if its just my family and friends. now this is all for now ta ta

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8/20/09

well its blog number two! so im still not the best at this. its kinda like im putting all the random thoughts that are in my head on here in no order at all. I always write in a jumbled mess! in time hopefully I will get better at that. along with getting better at writing I must learn how to not be so insecure. maybe I need to belive in myself just a little bit more. now back on topic childhood. now im not thinking of childhood as in when you were a child but more as in being a teenager and being a child with friends, this is something I am quite good at! you are never too old to do anything, you need to live out life so hey if you wanna ride the kiddy merry go round outside of cub..then ride it even if you are 17! you might not wanna sit in the helicopter tho you might get a little stuck :) I guess what im getting at is life is short so we need to have fun and do the unexpected be scared of nothing! I am actually really big at being afraid of heights but I still managed to do the ropes course at the mall of america, I have never shock so much, but now I am more willing to try something new. Im all for bettering myself as a person there is so much that I need to improve on but its so hard to tackle it all at once I think in time I will get there but I always need to remember to take it one step at a time! I really ewnjoy writing these and would not care if no one read them I write them for more and its just an added bonus if others wanna read it! now I think I should take a chance and tell people my blog so maybe if they want they will read it and then I will be acomplishing one more thing in life. well thats all for now. :)

8/19/09

Wow! my first blog! i never thought I would be one to write a blog! When I heard blog I would think...what to bloggers write about they must have really interesting lives! well life is interesting and everyone has interesting lives in their own way! So I really thought about it and I have tons that I can write about things that I actually know about and care about! My blog is purely about life I will not be one to rant off about my feelings I hope! I have nothing against talking about my feelings, but I would think it would be weird for my very few readers to read about it! You most likely wont see me writing about some things like politics because I am not one to get into those topics! the kind of topic that I enjoy are relationships, friendships, and life. I'm just a teenage girl who enjoys sharing my thoughts. now in to the actual blog. but first I must apologize I am also working on my not so great writing skills, they will be needed soon in college life, good thing I still have a whole year to practice! Now today's thought is relationships! That feeling you get around that one someone special its amazing, but then the feeling you get when something may go wrong is horrible. I recently lost the promise ring that was given to me by my boyfriends grandma, I was so scared about what he would think and feel I searched everywhere then told him thinking he would be mad, but he was quite understanding because he could tell that I was upset! about 10 mins later when I was digging through my cute endless sack also known as a purse I found the ring, but the hard part was already over! we got to share the excitement of the found ring and now I know that I should be more careful with the thing! I learned that you may not understand how important something is until it is gone..I think we learn this often in relationships being with friends or boys. A ring is just an item and an item is far different from a person, but a single item can represent a lot! keep things close if they are of any sort of value big or small! Now I must go on about friend since I fell like I have talked about boys forever and friends are much more important then boyfriends! losing a friend is like losing a piece of your heart, and losing a boyfriend is manageable. losing friends is something that happens rarely but the worse way to lose a friend is by fighting nothing ever seems final, nothing ever seems good enough you always wanna fix things because you may remember what you had not what you have! people may change and you may be friends with one who changes and that can ruin a friendship if the change is severe, and that's what hurts the most. You always are meeting new people and making new friends and life time relationships (I think I have many lifetime relationships). Relationships that will last a lifetime are the ones to keep! I think this is going to be all for now, If i keep going I might not have anything to write about next time, but I already do have a few ideas :) ta ta for now!