10/18/09

Writing this is like the highlight of my day, I've been looking forward to blogging, I'm kinda unsure why, its not like today was a boring day, its just I am on a good topic that I really like sharing my views about! so a bit more on the topic of smart points just to start things off a bit, I feel that the effect of smart points is the same thing as the effect of talking behind someones back, or saying a rude comment, or just not being there as a friend. someone else could take this 100 percent differently and one is not right or wrong, they are just different views. On this matter I can see a few different views on why they could be good, or bad, but bad just stands out so much more in my mind. If I were to have a conversation with you and you gave me smart points, you probably would think that you were doing something really nice, but to me you weren't and if I eventually never told people how much I hated smart points then this would continue to happen. Now I know a lot of people might not have the courage to tell other people how they feel or how their actions can affect them so greatly and they try and keep it all bottled up inside of them, but me I am not that type of person, I am no where near that type of person, but someone that I know very very well is the type of person that keeps its thoughts to itself. now I won't tell you who this person is because thats not my story to tell, but I will refer to it in a way. So if one keeps their thoughts to themselves and never tells anyone how they are feeling, then the person hurting them will continue maybe because they don't understand or they just don't care...it could even be a combination of both (I think that is probably most common). So a person feels bad about something that is happening and then it keeps happening because they can't or won't stick up for themselves and this can have a dramatic affect on a person, it can be long term or short term affects. The thing is the "hurter" might not even know what is going on. well back to the person that I know in this case the "hurter" knew, but did not fully know what was going on and continued hurting for many years, and it couldn't take it and major problems developed. After all this I have learned to express my thoughts and well sometimes I may express my thoughts a bit too much, I am glad I express them, because I know that it can prevent me from getting hurt, and that I will stick up for myself. The most important thing that I learned from all this is to think before words or actions that are going towards another person, be there for them, and don't say things that have a chance to hurt someone. Yeah joke around but make sure a joke is known as a joke. And again sometimes you might not know what you are saying can hurt, but other times you will. I really wanted to blog about this because even if just one person reads this and understands there words and actions better then maybe I could help someone, someone who is need, someone like the it in my life. I love the it in my life, and I'm glad it was able to overcome all of this and get the help it needed. So please just always remember this, and be nice. even tho I love it, I'm glad I'm different then it, and I hope that I remain stronger then it because of what I know. (if you know me and you wanna talk to me about it, or think you might know about it, just hit it up, I might tell you, but please if I say I don't wanna tell you because it would be too hard or awkward please respect that) It is used for confidentiality i did not want to use he/she because that could make it awkward. one more note before I move on, this is really serious to me, and if I ever tell you I'm hurt by something please know I am saying it for a reason, and even to other people, its respect, and respect is great. I may come back to this topic in a later blog, but right now its getting hard to write about...and I have had to take some breaks in writing this because it is so hard, but I pulled through because it is important. well I am off to go do homework, and probably think about this even more.

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10/17/09

Well I have decided that I am going to try and blog more often now...I should be able to do that. Whats the point of having a blog if you blog like once a month...yea I find that pretty lame, I think that if I do something I should do it right and do it fully, but the only problem is to do all the things that one wants to do in their life theres not enough time, life is crazy, life is fun, but life needs more time. well I am young and I like to live like theres no tomorrow because life is short and you never know what is going to happen, so you should do the fun things while you can and try to make the most of your time, but wait what about sleep, it seems like I end up having no time for it anymore, but I guess thats my own fault because when I have free time where I could be doing homework or getting other important stuff done I end up sitting here now and writing this or texting, or talking on the phone oh and facebook yeah thats the biggest distraction that ever lived...I mean it! i for sure just got distracted by facebook just now! but you gotta love it, one can communicate so easily! oh yea texting is also distracting me at the moment. So phones, my phone is like pretty much my life I need it I feel naked with out it, and it tends to be in my hands A LOT! I have come to realize how much I relay on my phone, if I were ever to lose the thing you would not want to talk to me, because I would not be very cheerful! (haha maybe that would help me out a bit...I tend to be a bit too cheerful HA!) So many people are without cell phones, and I used to take my cellular device for granted, but now I understand how thankful that I am to have one! even if mine is falling apart because all the good phones broke and I'm stuck with a crappy one, but it works so I love my phone for always being there when I need it.. and for helping me out so much! now my main thought that I really really really am excited to talk about! this was reminded to me first by a blog...its a really great one (check it out www.thomaslang19.wordpress.com) and he talked about smart points, then today someone thought they can take mine away...but it didn't work out so good. so heres the thing it all started out extremely early so early that no one in there right mind should have been up I would have loved to have been sleeping, but no we all had to be up early! well my brain works just a bit differently in the morning...it tends not not think to much before it sends words pouring out of my mouth...and I tend to be a bit cranky and sometimes even mean...don't worry I am only mean really early or without coffee both would be really bad. so back on topic I heard some girl so something way past dumb and to the people around me I said "Wow that girl just lost some major smart points" thus the creation of smart points...so during that entire day we were all taking and giving smart points...well after I explained what they were after I said that because everyone just kind of looked at me funny, but once they realized what they were..people were taking and giving smart points everywhere. it was over dramatic! well i was very very good at losing smart points...I would call myself a pro smart points loser... yeah I know thats a bad thing and im not too proud of it, but its the truth and I gotta put it out there! So after that day I thought everyone would forget about these so call smart points...but no they went on and on and on and on and on...they were like never ending! Me being the accidental creator of this madness I hated it just because I person does was thing that may have shown that they don't have a large amount of common sense one shouldn't take some imaginary thing away from them just to prove that they did it, they probably already know what they did was not too smart and you don't need to point it out to them...a great way to put it is its not really being a friend. sure there are also great times when you do or say something really smart and then you can have streaks of these and get lots of smart points, but a lot of people forgot about those times and only took points and never gave points...then if they did give points it kinda makes your smart comment less meaningful...think about you are in a great conversation and your just talking and someone goes woah that was really smart heres some smart points...then the conversation is lost... plus it kinda of saying wow I never thought something smart like that would come out of your mouth...it that takes away the good part of smart points...you can never really win with smart points...its just like yepp no matter what your not very smart..and it can really make someone feel bad. So I told everyone that did smart points to stop...and if you ever try to give or take my smart points the answer will sound something like No were not doing that! yea other people have different views and some really like smart points but me i find them to be a nightmare. well i could go on forever about smart points, but I think this is a good stopping place for now...but I think next blog I will talk more about smart points and what I really wanna get at eventually is how people act towards others and how much other peoples words and actions can hurt another person and how you might not even realize it...so now that you have a bit of a sneak peak into the future...im gonna leave ya hanging!

10/3/09

Woah! last night was a night to remember! So last night was the night in the cold (something that I did with sheltered reality), what we did was sleep in boxes to raise money and awareness for homelessness. Well, last night was just lovely weather...rainy, windy, and cold! To add on to this great luck we were having the box that I built for me and another person collapsed on top of us after being in it for like five minuets! First we thought this was a good thing, because it was like an extra blanket! We just couldn't move because the box was always on top of us! so well we froze, and were cold and wet. Then a brilliant idea hit me (actually I had the idea that morning, but then I just re had the idea!) We should sleep in my car (well SUV)! and that is exactly what we attempted to do, it was still cold and I was to tall so my legs were going up the door to the window, and the seat belt holder was hitting me in the back, and I was oh so comfy! I never actually did sleep! When I got home i thought humm maybe I should sleep now, but I thought and well if a homeless person had no sleep because they were cold, and wet they would not be able to sleep during the day, so I shall not sleep during the day! (work shall be a blast tonight) Yes, I may not have had the best experience, but I would do it again in a heart beat! (it was my third time already) no i would not do it because it is "fun" i would do it because real people just like you and me have to do this every night, they have no other option, they probably wouldn't of had a car to go into, and you will never know what that is like unless you give it a try! You may be cold and wet, but you will know how others feel! You will understand how hard it is to be homeless! And please for me next time you see a homeless person, at least smile at them because that is the least that you can do and a smile can truly make there day. think of them as everyday people just like you and me, because they are just like you and me!

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