9/22/09

So, its been quite awhile yet again, and well I really should be doing homework, or getting ready for work write now, but i just cannot concentrate. So first I wanted to tell you all how the no coffee week went, well it didn't go a week. Monday and Tuesday I had coffee once Wednesday I had coffee twice, but Thursday, Friday, Saturday, and part of Sunday I was successful! I was pretty crabby Sunday morning, and was very thankful to have coffee back in my life! The beginning of the school year has just been crazy busy there is so much that needs to get done and so little time, Senior year is pretty stressful. Plus all my classes contain a lot of work...I'm thinking about changing my schedule for the next semester something that is just as challenging, but I'm unsure over what choice will be better for my college process. If I do get a change one class that I would be taking is wood shop or metal shop (for anyone who knows me well please laugh at this), but my counselor thinks it would be great for college, I think it would be a great way to get an F and actually be trying! I wonder what my table would come out looking like! So much of my thinking has been devoted to my future this year, it makes me really excited but yet worried at the same time! Ok well I'm going to try and distract my mind from the future! So life lessons, I have learned to try your hardest everyday because you never know what can happen and to be a friend to everyone because you never know who they can turn out to be. These are things I always did anyways but they really can pay off! now its time for fun story time....I gotta chose a story, theres so many :) I got it so for those of you who don't know I love watching football, I do not really care who wins, I just like getting into the game touchdown dances, and victory dances are my favorite, now I may not watch many games or know anything about the game, but i will yell at my TV, Well Sunday was football day and I had some extra time and the game was on and so normal football yelling was going on little did I know my Foreign exchange student was behind me laughing it was great, if it were me watching there would be some youtube videos but nawh she is too nice for anything like that. So I will end with a thought for us all to think about! would you rather have a boring life and have lots of free time, or a extremely busy life doing things you love, but no free time to relax? share your thoughts please!

9/13/09

Wow! Its been awhile, well I guess the only reason to explain this is life is crazy, and busy! there was so much to do and such little time! First I wanted to let everyone know that I am challenging myself, well actually I'm being forced to challenge myself, I am very much not excited for this, but I will still try, I may not succeed, but I shall try! Well by now your all probably wondering what it is that I'm challenging myself with, hummm....maybe I won't tell you....nawh! The challenge is for me to go a WHOLE ENTIRE WEEK without COFFEE!!! now for some people this would be easy, well not for me...I'm not addicted (I'm really not, even if everyone says I am I'm not) But I do love coffee! Coffee is what brings me my happiness, and my kindness! without coffee I'm just mean and crabby! well enough about my love for coffee! On the exciting news is my internship started! its oh so much fun, but it is also a challenge, but this one is a lovely challenge that I enjoy! This is something that I hope to continue doing for the rest of my life, well, I would have to learn a lot more first, and I would like to do a lot more then I am doing now, but its on the same line! I am enjoying this and I know that I am making the right decision in my life, but it will be a lot of hard work, but very rewarding hard work! Oh, so if you do not already know I want to be an Occupational therapist! Actually nope changing that I want to be a Children's occupational therapist! I love kids, and I want to work with them! and help them! Even more exciting news is I have a host sister! She is a exchange student from Finland! well I'm thinking that I should head off to bed because I can not have my morning coffee!

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9/1/09

Today I have lots and lots that I need to say so so so much has happened recently. I'm going to start out with the less personal more thought based stuff and the ending is going to be more personal and maybe a bit harder to write about. OK so first theres one question that I always wonder, why do people always think at night?? Like you will sit there and try and sleep but all you can do is think! when you need to think about one thing I also find myself thinking about something completely different if only I could focus on what I needed to focus on I could get a whole lot more done in a day. so my next thought has to do with adults who tell you that you should act like an adult but then they don't know how to act like an adult their selves. Sometimes I feel like I act more like an adult then they do, other times I know, but yet I'm still a kid and need to just have fun and be myself sometimes. how come adults can have so many problems understanding that sometimes. I have a new favorite saying that I found one day its "its a good day if you volunteer to help and a bad day if you cant accept help" I love this saying, but it makes me think that I must have a lot of bad days. Theres lots of times that I need help and get offered help but I cant accept it because I want to do things myself. I have come to find out that I am a very opinionated person and I will honestly answer people questions or tell them how I feel about them or something that they have done, and sometimes it can hurt other peoples feeling, but I feel that I am helping them. REGRET, its something that I have a lot of I have learned to forget about the past, but I almost went back to the same old path as before, but then fate worked on my side and a random thing kept me on track, but I feel bad that I needed that random thing. what would have happened if something was not there to keep me on tract, I would have needed so much help to get back on tract, but I think I may have giving up and went back to old habits if it was not for fate. I also regret trusting some people, people that I know would hurt me but I let them get to me and I just got hurt. I knew it was going to happen, but I just let everything get to me. now the person that I trusted was a boy, I thought he was special, but he was just another jerk that I feel for...its kind of my life story. I also trusted some really close friends and I opened up to them about my life, it was a great experience and help me so much and I really just want to thank the people that were there for me...you guys are amazing and I love you. my last topic is confidence, it seems like no one has it including me, I think I believe in my friends more then I believe in me and that I believe in them more then they believe in their self, why can't everyone just believe in their self, why can't I believe in myself? well that's all that's on my mind...but it is a lot to be on my mind at once.

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8/29/09

so i did do the whole idea of writing down my thoughts that i should blog about, but that's at my house and i am currently not there. so I am going to go off of the lessons that I have learned recently. So if you don't know me well people always tell me that i am an easy person to talk to and they come to me for advice, but i have learned that I am very bad at doing the opposite, talking about me and things that i need advice on or problems that I have. well sometimes it can be nice to change and open up people can be there for you and help you out a lot! that's why I love my friends so dearly. i just only wish that I was a strongest person to open up and tell so many more people, but that is just not me, but it could help me. i could work on being a better me, something that I want to do. i think that i could be such a better version of myself while I am still myself. well, off to a new subject now... why do I have to talk oh so much my mouth is always moving, and some very weird things can come out that should maybe just be kept to me. now I am confused I started off with the whole open up more and went on to the whole less talking thing, but what I need to do is talk more about serious stuff and less about lame stuff while still being myself. this may be a challenge, but I think I can manage. just in case you were wondering I am cold. another lesson that I have learned is to forgive and forget, well I didn't actually learn that I just know that I really need to do that, but do not know how. the thing is i cover up the feeling of hate and pretend that nothing is wrong when deep down something may hurt me, but i did also do this today over a really really small problem, but you always have to start small and work your way to bigger projects. SLEEP get it sleeping is oh so important and I need more!! I'm so tired. blah i am such a pansy :) lol. So i am going to continue to learn life lessons and improving myself. I will keep in touch.

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8/25/09

How come whenever someone close to you goes somewhere for even the shortest period of time you miss them so much sometimes even before they leave. I could have gone, by that would have ruined their chance to have their freedom and make sure he is truly sure about this! blah! so now driving, why do you actually have to think, but you cant think to much. It is so hard to manage the in between. Now I'm actually not that bad of a driver I just cant park if my life depended on it! So the life lesson that I have learned always be yourself. No matter what you need to be you, most of the time I am great at being myself, but at times its hard, I never change for other people I change for myself. Changing for yourself still may not be the best that you can do then you have to change yourself back to being yourself. I love when exciting events are coming to a near. My exciting event is the MN state fair its this weekend! PARTY! lol! the feeling that you get can make your week great! So this may be really random, but I'm not blonde there is no blonde about me, and there is nothing wrong with being blonde. the color of your hair does not determine your intelligence, and If I were a blonde it would disappoint me that I would get judged just upon the color of my hair. I don't understand why someone could create a comparison between hair color and intelligence, there is nothing in common there and even if I'm not a blonde it annoys me that people have these ideas. Give a person a chance and actually meet them and get to know them before you judge them. well my mind is drained and I am out of things to write about, I think that I will start to write down my ideas when they come to me so I don't forget them again! :)

8/22/09

So right now I'm actually really frustrated, but most may ask why are you caring, but to me its important. So please take the time to read this and give me any feedback that you can. There once was a teenager (who's name will not be mentioned) who was my best friend for 12 years, she was very smart and was going to go very very far in the world. She had the motivation and the skills, but then she started hanging out with the wrong group of friends. me being the smarter one told her that I felt that we should go our own paths even tho it hurt telling her this i knew it was the right way to go. We had lost contact until about a whole year after splitting paths (this was today) and we started talking. I found out that this smart motivated girl had changed and she wants to throw away her life and drop out of high school when she has so much to offer! Now sure we are no longer friends but I still care enough where this hurts me and I don't wanna see this happen, so I tried talking to her, but there is nothing that I can do, she thinks she will be happy living in a trailer park (yea she really did say trailer park) But I think she is going to regret it. Do any of you have any ideas on how I could help? So now that I have got everything out of me about her dropping out lets blog! I have not learned any great life lessons recently, its pretty sad I love life lessons. The school year is coming up and its making me think what do i want to do before summer is over...the first thing coming to mind is shopping, but I want to do something better then that this is my last "free" summer where I don't have to worry about going off to college which I'm excited for, but yet its scary. Years past the big bang of summer has been a party, I'm sure I will go to them this year, but it wont be the big bang. I feel like I should go bungee jumping, hum maybe that will be it! bungee jumping seems like it would prepare my for the wonderful adventures of senior year! Now on the topic of school remembering back to my childhood days you go school shopping with the whole family and buy everything way before school would start. as the years go on it gets closer to the start of school and you buy less school supplies (because they are boring, and you always had to much anyways) and you buy so many more clothes, because they are important. Come to think of it I have yet to buy any school supplies (my mom got a bag of stuff without me and I have not even looked at it yet), but I have already got new school clothes. I like how the pattern changes I would so rather have a shirt over a notebook! I wonder if this pattern is the same for a lot of people or if its just my family and friends. now this is all for now ta ta

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8/20/09

well its blog number two! so im still not the best at this. its kinda like im putting all the random thoughts that are in my head on here in no order at all. I always write in a jumbled mess! in time hopefully I will get better at that. along with getting better at writing I must learn how to not be so insecure. maybe I need to belive in myself just a little bit more. now back on topic childhood. now im not thinking of childhood as in when you were a child but more as in being a teenager and being a child with friends, this is something I am quite good at! you are never too old to do anything, you need to live out life so hey if you wanna ride the kiddy merry go round outside of cub..then ride it even if you are 17! you might not wanna sit in the helicopter tho you might get a little stuck :) I guess what im getting at is life is short so we need to have fun and do the unexpected be scared of nothing! I am actually really big at being afraid of heights but I still managed to do the ropes course at the mall of america, I have never shock so much, but now I am more willing to try something new. Im all for bettering myself as a person there is so much that I need to improve on but its so hard to tackle it all at once I think in time I will get there but I always need to remember to take it one step at a time! I really ewnjoy writing these and would not care if no one read them I write them for more and its just an added bonus if others wanna read it! now I think I should take a chance and tell people my blog so maybe if they want they will read it and then I will be acomplishing one more thing in life. well thats all for now. :)